I'm losing my hair from stress. Hahahhahaha. Whoops.

I actually like pulled out a clump today in the shower. It was so gross.

I have problems. LOL

M'kay. Useless update.

PS; Pretty boys are PRETTY. <3

To go dance to Thriller on Main Street
To smoke a joint and feel good
To get drunk
To feel happy
for this weekend and next.
No feeling sad.
I will feel good.
For one fucking weekend. I want to feel good. I don't care how shitty I feel after.
I will not let anyone fucking ruin this.
So fuck off, let me do my thing, and don't get in my way.

Melanie's back, baby.

And she's ready to roll.

Cut me out.

That just seems to solve it.

I am a very sad panda.

[Edit:]
I feel like shit. And I'm sorry if I made you upset, but you did it first to me. Multiple times. and it hurts as much as trying to poke a needle in a hole you already made with it.

I'm going to miss a lot. I'd rather not lose our friendship, but I guess since you've already blocked or deleted me off every internet thing I had you on... I can't really do anything about it now.

You're a coward. But I guess I am too. I started to forgive you and move on and it kept being brought up. I got mad, and you obviously didn't like that.

I don't really know why I'm writing this, to be honest. Maybe some stroke of a miracle will let you read this. If there was a time I'd ever believe in God, it would be now.

I am passive agressive. But you used to like that. We used to joke about it while I sat on the bathroom floor of a hotel because I was too scared to go to sleep in the dark. You stayed with me, for the most part.

Was it you that changed, or was it me? I don't know. It really confuses the hell out of me, because somewhere we went wrong. But truth be told, you're the only one I really trusted other than Terri. I guess I put 110% in. Why do the people who try always get hurt?

You hurt now, probably. You've left everything, or so you say. I can't help but to think it's the get me off your ass. Maybe you're mad for being so cruel. Maybe you're sad because I hurt you too.

I'm hurting badly.
You didn't even give me a legit reason.
I think you were trying to get rid of me.
Was it a contest? See who dumps who first?

I don't know. I just don't.

All I know, is that, I'm sorry. And I know i's probably not enough to just be sorry, but I spent the last hour wanting to slice my throat open for hurting you so bad. Yeah. That's how much I care about something so stupid.

Why were we even fighting? I said something stupid.
So why should you be to blame? You're not.
I'm just stupid. stupid, stupid, stupid.
Stupidio.

I just wanted to be your friends for a really long time.
And somehow I knew when you asked, "How long do you think we'll be friends for?" IT would end a lot sooner than I had hoped.

I'm...
Sorry.

[/end of sad emokid rant]